Grateful

Almost a year ago to the day, my mother was diagnosed with an extremely aggressive form of cancer. At the time it was a bit of shock, largely because she was the sort of person who was healthy, and because there was until that moment no trace of cancer in the family ever manifested itself. Like at all. Women in our family live into their nineties. They generally die because well, 96 is fricking old. Something critical wears out eventually.

I can remember the very moment my mother felt sorry for herself; it lasted about as long as it took her to ask the doctor when the treatments would start. Roughly between five and fifteen seconds. Before the doctor finished explaining what had to happen next, pity part over.

And she fought like Muhammad Ali gearing up for the George Foreman fight. Her very own Rumble in the Jungle. Except the title in question was a lot more important. There were good days, ok days and really awful days. There were days the drugs and the radiation fogged her mind so completely, her confusion was palpable.

For the next six months, the one thing she kept coming back to was numbers. As in how many treatments remained. She did everything they asked and more.

So it’s a year later now, and yesterday Mom and I went out for some fast food, the first she had eaten in over a year. And she asked me if I wanted anything for my birthday. In my mind, there could be only one answer.

“I already got everything I want. You’re still here.”

Last Track podcast announcement

At the publisher’s suggestion, a podcast with a reading of The Last Track will be available for download in the next month or so. Starting shortly after the release date–an announcement about this soon–every few days another scene will appear, until a large portion of the novel is available in audio form. Spent much of this weekend editing down the files narrated by the magical ( ok, he’s not particularly magical, more like  insanely talented ) Chris.

If I was sick of the story by this point–after all this time malaise affects anyone, familiarity breeds contempt–hearing someone breathe life into the characters at this point is energizing. One of the great things about working with Chris is he performs with minimal direction, perceives subtle intricacies about the characters, and works them into his vocal performance–all while honoring the story and characters. Just give him a stack of pages and answer the occasional answer and he handles the rest. That says something about his talent. Intuitively he senses exactly which scenes or passages could be played in different ways, then works them from one of those viewpoints, and leaves it for me to decide which approach works best. I want to believe I have chosen wisely.

Of course, this means listening to a lot of audio files, but man, this is a good problem to have.

Now about the release date. A tiny issue reproducing the cover at the printer became clear this past week. Because there is some go between between the publisher and proofs and notes about them from both sides flying back and forth in the mail ( really can’t know what something renders until the many colored inks hits the paper ) there’s a small chance the date will be pushed out a bit. It will still make February, but whether it’s the 13th or the 27th, is a big question mark right now.

Again, a good problem to have, really.